I conduct(ed).
I had a blast with Republic Polytechnic Wind Symphony last Friday, 15 July where I get to conduct ‘Flight: Adventure in the Sky’ by Benjamin Yeo, a local composer. This concert is the last concert that I serve as the Concert Mistress of the band, and Flight is probably the last piece that I conduct for RPWS . I must say, it hasn’t been easy picking up conducting and expected to deliver accordingly.
Mixed feelings and emotions I am having, because I really do not wish to stop conducting just like that. I want to go further, I want to know more and experience more. I couldn’t seem to let go, it is just difficult. It felt great conducting, more than anything, my friends were under my baton, they delivered what I asked for. I’m really thankful and more than happy to have them with me. 
But part of me cannot wait to let go, because I want to know what lies ahead, and what should I do to make it happen, to fulfill my childhood dream..
I will be lying if I say that there weren’t moments that I wanted to give up being a concert mistress, and also conducting for these two years. But above everything else, passion has stopped me from doing so. I just can’t imagine not conducting, not working towards a goal as the concert mistress, or to give up just like this.
But it is of great thanks to all my supportive friends, who were always there for me, ready for me to rant to, listening and helping as much as they could, my conductor, Mr Yusri, who never fails to advice me on what I should do, and to guide me in conducting, giving me more opportunities than he has ever given to anyone, Dr Robert J. Ambrose, for his encouragements, sharing of his knowledge to me and improved my conducting in just a short period of time! Christine, who had run the concert and made everything possible! It is my pleasure to have all these people around me that I made my mark last Friday.
Like what one of my friends told me “An ending is yet another beginning..” It inspires me a lot. Together with what my teachers and mentors have taught me. I may or may not have the chance to conduct in near future.. But I will definitely work towards what I want to achieve, and make every impossible thing, POSSIBLE.
